I’m so tired of being overweight and feeling like I need to make myself smaller in order to feel better.
I’m afraid to be alone but that fear of one day being alone makes me push everyone away. That way I’m used to feeling alone and find a way to cope with it. In reality, nothing is promised so I can’t guarantee anything. Lately I feel so numb from all the stress. I feel like my emotions have not caught up to what I’m going through yet. So my body is just building up all of these different emotions and it’s wearing me down. As each day go by I put more and more of a wall up and I start to find comfort in it. It feels safe…but lonely. However, strangely, I’m okay with it. So the thing I fear most becomes something I feel safe with.
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